His mercy, what a beautiful thing...

What is it to really have a relationship?

Jesus came so that I could become one with Him, so that I could experience His true love. He brings balance into this crazy world which I live. I have the opportunity of having Jesus in my life, an ability to arbor something so beautiful and perfect the only way it could be found was through a supernatural encounter with God Himself.

I am wicked and evil because of the human nature to which I was born, but in psalms 5 it says that God really wants nothing to do with that.

If I can align my life with the steps and the map that He has provided, He will fill me. It's my choice, will I obey? Will I follow this beautiful word He has given me? Because of my nature I know I will fail, And I know I will fall(notice I said will, not might) but Psalms 5 says, "I will live in the multitude of His mercy"  so every time I make a mess of things, go the wrong way, or even fall flat on my face because I let myself get the best of me again! HIS MERCY IS THERE, His mercy picks me up and dusts me off, it never judges or laughs. His mercy is gracious, loving and quite the beautiful exchange.

HE GIVES ME SOMETHING PURE FOR MY IMPURITIES, SOMETHING WHOLE FOR MY BROKEN PEICES.

but how do I submit myself to this beautiful masterpiece when I know I can't paint? Psalms 5 says "my King, my God, for to You I will pray. In the morning You will hear my voice, in the morning I will direct it to You. I will look up"

It doesn't matter what kind of mess my life is, it doesn't matter what surrounds me, all I have to do is OPEN MY MOUTH, talk to my God, pray, and LOOK UP!  Later on in Psalms 5 it says "He will lead me in His righteousness"

I may not know the way or the answer, but I do know that if I look to Him, He will lead me.
But it all comes down to will I obey? In order to have a relationship with God the survives my crazy life, depends on my willingness to obey and submit my life to Him. It's because of His gracious mercy that we can do this! Thank God for His mercy!

Come on guys! WE CAN DO THIS!

Psalms 5:2-8 NKJV
"Give heed to the voice of my cry, My King and my God, For to You I will pray. My voice You shall hear in the morning, O Lord ; In the morning I will direct it to You, And I will look up. For You are not a God who takes pleasure in wickedness, Nor shall evil dwell with You. The boastful shall not stand in Your sight; You hate all workers of iniquity. You shall destroy those who speak falsehood; The Lord abhors the bloodthirsty and deceitful man. But as for me, I will come into Your house in the multitude of Your mercy; In fear of You I will worship toward Your holy temple. Lead me, O Lord , in Your righteousness because of my enemies; Make Your way straight before my face"

Being vs Doing

Well, I definitely can say it has been a while since I have posted anything on here, summer has come and gone it’s now October and I am finally scratching the itch I have had to blog!

I look back in the time period where I haven’t posted anything and ALOT has happened! And God has done so much! It’s been a Fun, hard, heartbreaking, healing, restoration, season. Yup all those things have happened but they all lead me to one Person, and that is my Jesus.

I don’t think I have ever been so poured out and vulnerable with God before, I am finding I have a carelessness about me when it comes to what others think about me and I have a yearning to only please God, not out of proving anything to Him but out of a place where I have fallen even more so in love with Him, that all I want to do is His will and purpose for my life. BUT there is one thing I had a revelation from that I have seen myself do my whole life. I always try to do what God has called me to do but I was forgetting to be who God has called me to be, it’s like I was trying to help God with the doing part as if he needed my help? Right? Is that not ridiculous?

When I try to Do vs. Be I worry about getting everything done in a day, I worry am I going to learn this fast enough. I worry about who I am supposed to end up with. I worry about my checklist of goals and dreams, and anything else I would need to worry about in order to be great at something, but as of this last little while I decided just to be who God has called me to be, and I know that all the things I have to do will fall into place.

I have wondered so long, "how do I know that I’m being not just doing? I mean after all if I am being who God has called me to be, shouldn’t I be doing what He has called me to do?" it seems so confusing yet it’s so simple! just ask yourself "who am I?" and if you even struggle for a second in who you are or if you realize you need to change who you are, go to the word of God and find what it says about you! And every decision will flow from that place. The bible says I am kind so I get to choose to be kind! The bible says I am to imitate Christ, I get to choose to imitate Him or not! And when I don’t get something done or it doesn’t go according to plan or the timeline I thought it should, it’s ok! It is not a big deal! Because I am not proving anything, God has already proven me and I get to trust His timing. Do you kind of see the difference? If you were to just do, you would beat yourself up for not getting that thing done or that book read and you end up full of anxiety and worry and the devil will just beat you up with it!

So when you look at what you have to do in a day it may be the exact same things weather your being or doing BUT, your position is different, how you see God and how you see yourself is different! Your whole mindset is different and guarded by what the word says about you.

So I challenge you to stop wherever you are in life and evaluate, where do I land when it comes to being vs. doing? Maybe you don’t even know what you’re supposed to do but you can’t truly find it until you find in God’s word who you’re supposed to be. And if you don’t know how to do that ask someone to help you see what Gods word says about you!

Power In TheTongue

I was reading in proverbs and what God was really showing me was how much power there is in my words or a word in general.
So we always hear about how what we say can speak life or speak death.......sounds harsh but I believe this is taken too lightly on a very regular basis. Even more so in how people joke or what’s become "normal" in how we speak to each other,
The word of God is so refreshing all the time; it never brings shame, guilt, or condemnation. His words are always up lifting, even in its correction. My life is to modal the word of God, not only at a Wednesday night or Sunday morning, not when I am talking to my pastor or my life group leader, but always! When you’re in your group of friends, what is your speech like? With co workers or schoolmates what’s coming out of your mouth? What you say actually shapes who you are; Joking or not what you say reflects your heart condition. The mouth is a mirror to the heart.......OUCH!

On another note maybe people are or have spoken words over you that have shaped or affected you in a negative way. Maybe it’s not just what they say but how they say it. No matter who has said what, remember the word of God trumps ALL other words...not some but all! So no matter what your friends have said...TRUMP! The word of God is true. No matter what your parents have said or think........TRUMP! The word of God is faithful. No matter what your spouse has said.....TRUMP TRUMP TRRUUUMP!!! The word of God is satisfying! NO matter what ANYONE has said about you, the word of God TRUMPS! His word NEVER FAILS! All the promises of the book are yours!

Maybe, you have messed up or you feel like a failure or the devil tries to bring condemnation on you. Maybe you feel stuck in depression, fear, insecurity, pride, or you feel completely broken and lost, the word of God says that one word from Him can mend, fix, and restore a broken spirit. He can heal all things, deliver from all things.

 So as a Christian who has a relationship with God I'm going to make it my goal, to speak life, beauty and value on a daily basis, on an encounter to encounter basis. "A gentle tongue is the tree of life" Proverbs 15:4
So I challenge you, to reevaluate where your heart is and what you need freed from and allow the word of God to move you where you need to go. Trust in His words. Trust in His heart for you, and allow Him to meet you and speak over your life

A Broken Heart Like His

I am finding myself constantly in a place where I'm brought to tears quite easily, some would say I'm emotional, some would say it’s my time of the month but this has been a constant issue for 3 months and its progressively getting worse. But the phrase from the song Hosanna "Break my heart for what breaks yours" has never been so real to me. God clearly spoke to me that He is taking me through a heart breaking season for people. Driving home tonight he began to reveal his heart in a whole new way. I don't know how to even begin to describe it, but it’s like I could actually feel His heart in me and deep down inside it started hurting for others. As this breaking has been taking place His love has just been so much more evident. I have not had any fear or hesitance in sharing His love. He has taking me from the place of knowing I am called to be a whiteness and knowing I'm called to evangelism to the place where it’s actually become a part of who I am and what I do. I no longer have to make myself share the love of Christ it just flows out of me. People I never thought I could have an effect on are coming to me and it feels like, on a daily basis I get to impact someone’s life because of my savior. The revelation of the cross has never been so real.

The Picture God showed me of where I am currently at is in the movie Tangled, it’s when Rapunzel is coming out of her tower of everything she has know all her life, and she makes the choice to leave it all behind. She touches grass for the first time, and she feels a stream of water on her feet for the first time. She starts singing this song how she is finally free and she is running and chasing and dancing and racing and she is freaking out because of how good it feels to be outside of all she has known into a place of the unknown, it’s weird to her because it’s so different but it feels so right, it kind of scares her but she grabs her frying pan and faces the unknown.

That is exactly where I am at, I have made the choice to come from my high place and enter into the unknown, and I’m completely freaking out and I’m going crazy with it! (In a very good way) it feels weird and it kind of can be scary at times. I’m so ready to face the unknown because it not only feels so right, but because God told me it is.

I hate the saying "time heals all wounds" because God heals all wounds and it’s only by Him that we can be clean, set free, restored, and made whole. You as a Christian are called to bring that message to the dirty, bound, broken, and empty people. Step out of your high place and choose to live beyond yourself and allow God to take you through that transition so you can fully walk out the call of God. God’s desire for you is that you’re not in the ok will of God or the good but that you walk in the great and perfect plan that He has for you.

Simply Me

I sat and wondered what to blog about forever now, so ill blog my simple revelation of the evening, if you can even call it that. So today was crazy as always and I had a revelation of  how Gods grace has set me free. I went threw the day completely confident in who God made me, I can completely be myself and not give a care what people think about me. For a while tonight I was wearing my bsu sweats, tank top, apron, new 5 inch heels(makes me almost average height), and a samurai sword! only the really privileged get to see that side of me. Anyways its just cool to see the progress that Ive made by Gods grace. If your out there wondering or feeling insecure just know who made you and that your fearfully and wonderfully made! your lil goofy corky attributes and all! its time that we not only dress and adorn yourself to express who you are but WHOSE you are!

Life Aint No Fairy Tale Honey

Once upon a time, in a land called Idaho. A girl named Faith grew up.....
Ok, so I have always loved the Disney princess stories or any love story for that matter and always dreamed of the day when my prince charming would come and sweep me off my feet, just like almost any girl dreams about. And still to this day I want to live in a castle! But I think that too many people in the church live with a fairy tale mentality when it comes to the dreams of God. People don’t realize how much work living in the Great things of God is, yes we have his grace, and yes we have the Holy Spirit to help guide and comfort us thru life. But for every promise there is a premise.

Everything God gives us in life requires stewardship, whether is be money, things, cars, houses, kids, relationships, and the dreams of God all require stewardship. Just because you can’t see touch or feel in the natural the dreams of God you still have to steward it as if it was a great treasure. When you value something your willing to go to great measures to keep it safe or see it flourish. If you value the dreams of God your willing to put yourself out there to see it flourish, your willing to go to great measures to see it succeed.

 I guess God has really showed me in this last season the work that it takes to begin to shake the fairytale mentality of the" one day" thinking, or the abra cadabra POOF, all the sudden it will happen thinking, to if I lay down my life, my feelings, my thought process, and take on how God does things I will actually see progress in the things im called too, and ill actually feel fulfillment when I walk it out. Yes its hard, and Yes sometimes I don’t want to do what it takes, but I have found when I decide in the moments of "I don’t wont to do this right now" or "I don’t feel like it right now" on the other side of those moments He opens the doors wide for even more success and great reward! And I have absolutely fallen in love with Him and with the transition that He is taking me thru, and it’s something He has made me passionate about.

So if you find yourself in the fairytale mentality category, or you have the dream of God and you’re doing your best to go after it but feel like you’re on the loosing end of the battle constantly. stop where your at in life, and fall back in love with God and He will reveal all He wants you to see and do, and He will equip you for the greater things of God. Remember a true relationship with God based off of love means your laying down all the old ways, all your own ideas, really your laying down your life! And in the place of surrender to Him, that’s when He can bring a victory in your life.

                                              In your weakness He is strong.

He Speaks

The grand thing about having a relationship with the Holy Spirit is, He can use anything to speak to you. I am a very picturesque type of person and God always speaks to me in pictures or analogies. for one my car! He has such a great humor that He will use my car to speak to me, Many see my car and automaticly assume something about it, either its a piece of crap, its a piece of art or whatever! but I see a story and a constant reminder of where I was. sooooo a duct tape light, hop, skip and car crash away the next paragraph begins.....

A few years back I wasn't really following the Lord, I kinda did my own thing.  so what happened! I kept driving into things, off of things, over things! I even accidentally hit my sister (not very hard at all). when finally one day I hit black ice and flew off the road, over a ditch, into a field! and I found my self wearing high heels, knee deep in mud....and it took a big truck to pull my car out. and in that moment I found myself an emotional mess, but also in that moment God spoke and he clearly spoke, "Faith, you may be deep in the mud of your life, and yes your pretty banged up and YES it may take a big truck to pull you out of this.....BUT I have called you for such a time as this and your called to be like that truck pulling others out of their messes, Im happy and blessed to say that what He spoke was true! and now I can enjoy the voice of my God when and wherever I decide to listen! and im extremely excited about this so I just had to blog about it! now my next lil story....

so I have started a diet. NOT because I am unhappy with myself, because I truly believe that if your not happy with you now, you wont be happy with you later, no matter what you try to change and that's something God had to take care of in your heart. I am going on a diet because I want to be healthy and I am to steward my body as a holy temple that belongs to the Lord. Now that I have put that disclaimer out I will get on with it. I am faced with the temptation to eat all this bad food my flesh wants sooo bad! because it tastes sooooo good! and then I had the thought if I had never tasted the bad stuff in the first place, I would have never had a problem eating the healthy stuff! If I had never tasted the ways of the world I would have never had a problem sticking with the ways of the Lord!
but if the people who have never had a chance to know how GOOD God tastes had the opportunity to taste Him. just think of the change you could make! aaahhhhh I kills me that Christians don't realize this is their job!

Know that YOU are called, YOU are chosen! and YOU have access to all the power and authority that Jesus has, and the word says that YOU will do greater things then Jesus! YOU YOU YOU YOU YOOOUUU! YOU got this! YOU are a leader! and YOU have influence over other people, regardless where you come from, regardless what your family says, regardless how long you have been saved! so put you head up shoulders back and start to influence and speak to a generation who needs to ever so badly taste the goodness of God.and dont forget the dream the dream of God while your at it, because I guarantee if its God Dream, it will affect more then just you,