I am finding myself constantly in a place where I'm brought to tears quite easily, some would say I'm emotional, some would say it’s my time of the month but this has been a constant issue for 3 months and its progressively getting worse. But the phrase from the song Hosanna "Break my heart for what breaks yours" has never been so real to me. God clearly spoke to me that He is taking me through a heart breaking season for people. Driving home tonight he began to reveal his heart in a whole new way. I don't know how to even begin to describe it, but it’s like I could actually feel His heart in me and deep down inside it started hurting for others. As this breaking has been taking place His love has just been so much more evident. I have not had any fear or hesitance in sharing His love. He has taking me from the place of knowing I am called to be a whiteness and knowing I'm called to evangelism to the place where it’s actually become a part of who I am and what I do. I no longer have to make myself share the love of Christ it just flows out of me. People I never thought I could have an effect on are coming to me and it feels like, on a daily basis I get to impact someone’s life because of my savior. The revelation of the cross has never been so real.
The Picture God showed me of where I am currently at is in the movie Tangled, it’s when Rapunzel is coming out of her tower of everything she has know all her life, and she makes the choice to leave it all behind. She touches grass for the first time, and she feels a stream of water on her feet for the first time. She starts singing this song how she is finally free and she is running and chasing and dancing and racing and she is freaking out because of how good it feels to be outside of all she has known into a place of the unknown, it’s weird to her because it’s so different but it feels so right, it kind of scares her but she grabs her frying pan and faces the unknown.
That is exactly where I am at, I have made the choice to come from my high place and enter into the unknown, and I’m completely freaking out and I’m going crazy with it! (In a very good way) it feels weird and it kind of can be scary at times. I’m so ready to face the unknown because it not only feels so right, but because God told me it is.
I hate the saying "time heals all wounds" because God heals all wounds and it’s only by Him that we can be clean, set free, restored, and made whole. You as a Christian are called to bring that message to the dirty, bound, broken, and empty people. Step out of your high place and choose to live beyond yourself and allow God to take you through that transition so you can fully walk out the call of God. God’s desire for you is that you’re not in the ok will of God or the good but that you walk in the great and perfect plan that He has for you.
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